to looking like this - a photo of myself taken at the end of last year;
Which will give some indication of just how much weight I've put on!
Admittedly I do have health problems - I have to, on occasion, take steroids in order to keep rheumatoid arthritis at bay, and I have a genuinely under active thyroid resulting in my metabolism being particularly sloth-like - neither of which obviously help, but I really can't hide behind excuses like that knowing just how lax I've become in at least attempting to eat healthily. So my New Years Resolution, rather boringly, is to lose at least a fair proportion of the weight I've put on over the years.
Last night I decided to swallow my pride and go back (I've been before...more than once!) to Weight Watchers, and got the shock of my life when I stood on the scales. I won't tell you just how much I weigh out of pure embarrassment, suffice to say it's going to take me a couple of years to get myself back into a healthy weight zone, given my inability to exercise in any meaningful manner. Even swimming is out of the question as I'm allergic to chlorine and unfortunately a quick dip in the river is just too cold to contemplate at this time of the year! I confess the task ahead is all a little overwhelming right now hence my boring you all with it here. Using public humiliation as an incentive maybe?
Anyway, I'll try not to go on about it too much in blogland but might, on occasion, either do the triumphant fatty dance having lost a few pounds or the not so triumphant 'I can't do thissssss' whinge whenever a chocolate or cheese laden pizza slice is giving me the evils.
You have been warned!
I dont think this is going to be very helpful to you, BUT I think you look beautiful in both pictures, but I do totally understand that its the way you feel about it.
ReplyDeleteYou obviously you just cannot help having the beauty within oozing out!
Good luck, and remember one cake does not sink the boat, just start again and right it off as a slip of the tongue! sorry aboout the mixed metaphores.
Kate good luck but I agree you are beautiful in both photos.....Thanks for support about my RE-birth ......maybe it's a good start to the New year for me !!.......xx
ReplyDeleteIts so nice to see you as you are, that elusive person hiding behind the camera! Now I can place your face to your voice when I read your words!
ReplyDeleteI agree with the commentors above, you look great in both shots, but best of luck all the same... :)
Hope you have good health too in 2012
Carrie... :)
I'm going to sound like a broken record here, and second...no fourth, what the others have said about you looking beautiful in both shots.
ReplyDeleteBut, as someone who's struggled with weight issues myself over the years, and have not been able to feel comfortable when I was at my largest, I fully understand your desire to get to a size where you feel good - inside as well as out. I believe that we all have an optimum weight/body range where we're feeling good, healthy and vital - for some it's bigger, for others it's smaller (I'll never be 120 lbs no matter what I do - barring cosmetic amputation - and I'm fine with that.)
It is particularly unfair that the time for New Year resolutions is in the depths of winter when going for a walk is not terribly inviting, and one just wants to retreat to warm and bracing foods.
I wish you all the best with this, and all the best in the New Year.
Body image is a complex thing...so, sorry if you don't get any public humiliation here. My criteria is fitness. I think Kate Middleton has single handedly driven an entire generation of young women into the arms of diet gurus, if not possibly into the "purging room" or the anorexia wards. Sheesh. Her sister, walking up that aisle was "the tail that launched a thousand diets".
ReplyDeleteNobody can just wake up and decide "well for here on I will run a half marathon every day". Its not that easy. You have to make a commitment to yourself...a walk around the block first, then a small non-food reward, then work up to a walk around the town during "lunch hour". Then work up to another in the evening after dinner. Books on tape in your ipod help.
Jaimie Oliver has a TV show about how to eat well. One of his requirements was you should never eat anything light brown. Only eat things with colour in them. As good a diet plan as any.
Thank you for all the positive comments. Posting photos of myself isn't something I tend to do as I far prefer being behind than in front of a camera, but I'm glad they perhaps gave you some sense of who I am, past and present! Thank you too for all the encouraging advice - it's day three and I'm managing to stick to things quite well without too much cold turkey. If I come out at the end of it looking a little less like a michelin woman and feeling healthier I'll be more than happy!
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